desire

my youngest daughter fights sleep with a passion comparable to that ascribed to the likes of danica patrick and even big brown.  and my youngest daughter performs this each and every day, sometimes a few times in the same day.  my interpretation is that she is doing everything she can possibly do to be in the moment…awake…taking things in…fully alive.  my oldest daughter fights to balance work and friends and photography and painting and reading and caring for pets and living in a big city and stay connected with family and ask questions and think about her future.  my interpretation is that she is doing everything she can possibly do to have purposeful activity in the moment.  my son fights to balance customers and income and creative genius and music and friends and dodgeball and riding a bike and living in a very cool city and stay connected with family and trigger creativity in others and think about how to apply his creative design skills to work.   my interpretation is that he is doing everything he can possibly do to afford purposeful activity in the moment and in perpetuity.  i’ve been thinking about how far out to plan my next lathe project, and get the mixer for my keyboards, and paint the bathroom ceiling and rear shakes, and glaze the windows, and chop the stump, while balancing the work projects that just got another day behind by my being a bit under the weather and home sick from work yesterday.  my interpretation is that motivations stay the same…assumed responsibilities alter the space in which we have our desires